I'm sitting at a computer desk to kill time doing journaling. I'm waiting for John to finish the test in Hankook University of Foreign Affairs. Writing something about what's happening around me is one of most freeing in my life. Journaling makes me slow down to get closer to what's truly happening. What I truly feel on the inside is that I have still been caught up in the rat race and have disregarded my feelings and just kept myself busy and jaded. I really have a desire to have a deeper and more realistic view of my feeling inside. Having a small talk with John always gives me a chance to slow down enough to try to understand what I feel. Revealing my feeling is the beginning of healing. Looking back on the things that I have felt at his age, my life now seems to be truly worth living because I feel I'm giving someone a helping hand. A great way to feel undisturbed is to keep myself balanced in two extreme feelings. Resentment and anger should be thinned by introspection.