Hello! I'm Yoon-Ji Jung in loyalty A team. I appreciate to God and Missionary Mr. and Ms. Lee who gave me a chance to share with brothers and sisters about God's grace. I entered into Drama and Cinama, Chung-Ang University. The day I passed, I prayed, "I want to enter into christian circle and serve God well!", but the mind was only that day.Even I'd met many christians from the medical check up day, I was on the run from them including navigator sisters. It hasn't even been a month, I felt doubts about my University life. One day, I prayed to God for my dull feeling in dead hour. "God, why my life is hard and empty? Please help me." At that time, I was doing Quite time with a QT book which was shared in my church. Shortly after my prayer, God told me that, "When I came, why was there no one? When I called, why was there no one to answer? Was my arm too short to ransom you? (ISAIAH 50:2) At that time, I saw the Word, I couldn't understand, just read it. On that day, I met navigator sister in Art Center. She looked like thin and weak and she didn't looks like, but as if I didn't here the gospel, she shouldn't let me go. So I listened and received Jesus Christ. After I've been joining here, I saw a sister who was turned down from me. The passed day, God already answered my prayer and stretch his hand to me through people, but I just pretended not to know that and rejected. Now I would like to share the blessings in this fellowship. First of all, I realized God's love of cross and grace of salvation. I was brought up in the Christian faith for three generations. I was born a christian, I already knew that Jesus is a son of God and christ. He died on the cross for my sins. But it was too common for me. I thought it was not related with me. Before I met navigators, I thought that God would make my life twist if I didn't go to church. I used to meet God only on Sunday. If I had a hard time, I would find him only that time. Of course I liked cross, but I didn't know in the true sense of the word. I was shocked by the Bible Study. Learning what Jesus christ did it, I learned how hard the suffering. Jesus had a perfect human character, he was hungry and felt sleepy even he felt all kinds of physical pains. He felt a sense of humiliation and betrayal. Until that time, I thought he is God, so the pain of cross was nothing to him. Thus he went the way of cross. However Jesus was on the cross and felt not only all kinds of physical pains but also mental torment like betrayal. The reason was for me. "But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." (ROMANS 5:8) Though I didn't deny my sin, I thought that I wasn't that kind of sinner as much as to die on the cross. When I first learned "The assurance of confess", I applied and prayed to God as I got sin please let me know and I decided to confess. From that day, God let me know my sin all weeks long as grain of sesame. I was jealous of my smart friends, exalted myself when I was alone, I got irritated to my family and sisters. I had sinned all the time except for quiet time with God. Constantly, I confessed. I was devastated by my sin of lump just for a few minutes, but I was appreciate to know Jesus's love of cross. Even though I got sin hundreds and thousands times, I couldn't solve by myself the result of sin. So it is no wonder to go to hell. That's why Jesus suffered that kinds of pains. I realized that itself was love. A short time ago my brother who is high school student, he came home at a late hour. So I prayed to God my brother come home safely. That time, my brother sensed someone's presence so looked next side. He saw a robust man who held a white handkerchief and there was a deep black van at the rear. The man approached to my brother and tried to cover my brother's mouth with the handkerchief. At that time my brother threw a punch to him and it blew to his face. When the man fell down, my brother run like mad and came to house safely. Next day, I heard this story by phone in vision building, I got goose bumps. I could tell God how appreciate, God saved my brother. So I gave thanks in the first floor, God told me that, "Dear Yoon-Ji, do you thank to me to save your brother's life? But there are more thank to him. He received redemption from the hell." My brother listened to the gospel and received Jesus Christ when I was a freshman. For the first time, I appreciated my brother had the salvation. If my brother had taken, what became of my brother? recently, there are many traffics in teenage and twenties young generations. It's terrible to think about it. However the hell can't be explained with the terrible word. I thought that life is too important in this world, but how important the eternal life that couldn't change with anything. I appreciate God who gave me the eternal life, though I'm a dirty sinner.
Second, to enjoy the privilege as child of God and live a going well and happy
My younger sister and younger brother and I enjoy the privilege as children of father.
My father is a pilot at K-airline
The largest privilege as children of pilot is a very cheap airfare.
I receive 90% DC than other people.
A round-trip plane ticket from Seoul to Busan is 35,000 won.
Hotel's charges DC related to airline. Four-year university tuition's exemption. When I took an airplane that my dad was adjusting, crew's treatment varied. Because I am father's daughter, I enjoy them.
But the privilege was terminated automatically by graduating from university, marriage or thirty years old.
Above all, when my dad quit the company, that's that .
But the privilege as daughter of God can not be compared.
It will never disappear that does not qualify and it is eternal.
The privilege as child of God is the privilege of prayer.
University and fellowship answered to prayer.
I has been wanted to enter the Theater and Film Department at the Chung-Ang University since middle school senior. I pray, "It's okay for me to fail other schools but let me pass at the Chung-Ang University, please"
Because the Chung-Ang University is better than any other university.
I failed all other schools and College Scholastic Aptitude Test went flop but I was accepted by the Chung-Ang University through nonscheduled admission.
When I prayed to keep the faith because of keeping the faith in the Theater and Film Department and become happy, I met sisters.
When I prayed, God always answered prayers.
When I prayed to come bus quickly, bus came quickly. When I prayed to decrease the test range, the test range decreased.
When I prayed to rain at shooting, it rained. When I prayed to stop raining, it stopped raining.
When we prayed, God answered prayers. This is because children of God.
Also, the privilege as child of God is to know and experience the word.
When I came followship first, I surprised brothers and sisters who read and experience the word.
While I shared with followship, I learned to accomplish the word regardless of believing it or not and obeying it or not, because God's word is truth.
For the second semester final exam period of one year, I was too hard every day because of assignment, presentation and exam.
When they did by priority like sisters at the time, I wanted to experience the top and scholarship. So I prayed for them. But when I saw the situation, I felt heavy with the situation.
Sisters saw and advised me to pray with the word of promise.
When I prayed to have the word of promise, God talked about the David and Goliath.
1 Samuel 17:45,48- David said to the Philistine, "You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the LORD Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet him.
I prayed with this word of promise. “God, my classmates are bright and very talented. I only believe in God. My classmates go at the test with a world's weapon but I only depend on God. Let me win the assignment and exam beneath Goliath.”
I wrote specific prayers on each subject and prayed every day.
Basic and spring of Grace did by priority.
The final exam was a festival of answering prayer.
I took the world's film history class. We would learn the history of the world all movies at this class.
The final exam range was 1940-90's at the time.
Because of the world's film history, I had to know all the country's film history on the United States, France, Italy, Germany and Japan at that time.
The subject had the amount of studying. Because European movie of the era was an art film art, Most of the students went to sleep within 10 minutes.
But I asserted the word of promise and studied and took an exam.
I prayed to remember about studying and run out of time.
I solved the problem well but a question was an entirely strange question.
The question was about the film's effects and characteristics of French film director.
I didn't remember because of dozing in class and I ran out of time.
I prayed again. "Oh, my Lord! Let me forgive about dozing in class. Please have pity on me. The time is enough. Let me remember about the answer"
After praying, One student raised his hand and he asked for more time.
The average testing time of the Film history was 2 hours.
The exam are usually longer than the average time of testing time. So the professor was difficult to give more time. But the professor gave 30 minutes.
First, I solved different problems and the problem looked at again
While praying over the problem, I thought that I've seen about the movie in other class.
The movie kept going round and round in my head. Because the time was not enough, I was obliged to write the answer.
As soon as I came out of the classroom, I asked my classmates about answer of the question. I wrote correct answer.
The subjects received the A+ and I was at the top to 4.4 at that semester.
When I was in high school, I aimed to get first place in my class.
So I studied so hard who got bloody noses.
I aimed to study about 8 hours out of class hours. If I didn't fill the time, I could not sleep.
when I came in first at the classroom and I leaved last, I felt relieved.
But grade always was the second or third grades.
But When I believed in God and did by priority, the first grade was too easy.
Everything went well as well as grade.
Fellowship with the Lord by word and prayer never end to going well.
It is incidental.
Above all, through fellowship with the Lord, I have known God as the master of this world, the Creator and he loves me.
When I read the Bible, God always talk about loving me.
Isaiah 49:15,16- "Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See Yun-Ji, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.
Psalms 121:3- He will not let your foot slip. he who watches over you will not slumber.
Because I have been loved by the Creator, my life have no choice but to be happy.
Because the Creator is my father, I have a strong background. So I feel a sense of stability.
Everything go well and happy and peaceful life! Because I am a child of God, I enjoy privileges.
Third, I became to know myself and my character has been changed.
Before meeting this fellowship, I thought that I was faithful, studied hard, had many friends, a good person somehow.
However I am getting to know myself through learning Bible and having fellowship with sisters.
I am easy to anger and a grumbler. My face and words show my angry feeling and
until wreakng my feeling, I was angry and did anything on my own.
When I was in the middle school, there was one friend who had so, so bad relationship with me. One day the friend abused very badly in front of me. On hearing that, I hitted him with anger and all bad words. Eventually the situation stopped after boys' helps. When I study, if I felt angry I threw all the things then I could calm down. After doing that, my right hand was usually bruised.
My father who was from "air force" treated me cruelly like army. But I said everything what I wanted to say so I suffered more severely.
Fighting with sister and brother is common thing. After fighting with them, I felt more unpleasant. But there was no solution.
After coming here, Navigator, my this character made the leader and sisters uncomfortable. However I came to know that God doesn't like this bad anger and it made not only me but also other sisters unhappy.
Sisters always say " Thank you~~ " I trained myself to resemble them. Surprisingly "thanks giving" made my dissatisfaction silent.
I hate getting up late and being late.
On the 1st day of STP, I got up late because of filming. Because it took 2 hours from my home to vision hall, I couldn't be there in time. Running fast, I was about to say discontent naturally. But I said "Thank you" with will.
I give thanks because I slept only for 3 hours but I slept very deeply and I felt that running was exercising. After giving thanks, I got the faith that if I pray to God, I could be in the vision hall on time. So I arrived faster than my leader who lived 10 minutes - distance from vision hall. My leader was so surprised. I could experience that the one word "thank you" made my anger released and above all, it made my faith grow and experience God.
And God teaches me with words whenever I was angry and had complain
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret--it leads only to evil.(Psalm 37:8)
"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,
and do not give the devil a foothold. (Ephesians 4: 26,27)
Now I am still lacking. However my anger calm down in 10 minutes and I confess to God. I give thanks to God, Missonary Mrs. Lee and sisters who accepted me to the end.
Lastly I thanks God for calling me to live this valuable and eternal life with his vision. When I was in high school 41 people were in my class and over 20 out of them were Christians. My school wasn't Missionary school but still there were many of them. I remember the first day of school, during lunch time there was a silence for 30 seconds because of the people who pray for the meal. And also we prayed for the Soccer tournament. since we all knew that we would be the last we prayed for each soccer games and at the end we could get the second place. But then during the play one of our friends got injured so we all went to the friend's place and prayed for her. And also during the exam we prayed for it together. The classmates who didn't believe in Jesus could have good thoughts about the Christians through our behaviors. But unfortunately none of our Christian classmates could preach gospel to friends who open their heart to God. There were three friends who's father was priest at the church and some other friends are attending theological college now but they couldn't do anything. The classmates who didn't believe in Jesus that time still don't. I also knew that I should tell the gospel to them but I didn't know how to. Navigator helps people individually to grow their faith and teaches how to help others. Can I be like her? I never think about preaching the gospel to other people. However through the fellowship with God and sisters it made me possible to do it. I was very sad about my friends and others who didn't believe in Jesus after I had assurance of salvation. One of my best friend didn't believe in Jesus. so when we were in middle school I asked her to go church with me but she refused. She said she has bad experience at church. Since she's attending Kyoung-Hee university in Su-Won I prayed to God that she would able to meet Kyoung-Hee navigator and start to believe in Jesus. But for 2 years she haven't meet navigator at her school. While I was praying for her I thought I should tell her the gospel. Then the second year of summer vocation I met her but I couldn't tell her the gospel because of the fear that Satan gave me. So I just gave her the paper of gospel and let her read by herself. I wasn't happy in my way back home. I felt sad and sorry to God since I have known her for 7 years and also have pray for her salvation for long time. But then actually I couldn't really talk about the gospel. For another semester I prayed for her and I met her again during winter vocation. I asked sisters to pray for us and I strongly prayed against Satan in the way. Then I finally told her the gospel and she received Jesus in her mind. She was crying while she was praying. After we talked about the gospel she asked me why didn't I tell her this last time. She said that she read the paper but couldn't understand so she was going to ask me next time. I was so happy that I almost scream out loud in my way home. I wondered how much God pleased about this. I remembered what sisters said about the happiness when person find God and come back to him. They said the happiness is unexplainable. Now 100% I agree with it. After that I preached the gospel to my friends and others around me. Through it I could feel God's ability and grace whenever I talked about it. One day I found a schedule notes which I used during middle school and I felt emptiness when I looked at it. Because on the notes I found that I spend all my time for studying except 10 minutes of Quite Time in the morning. I felt like I worked really hard for nothing left.
Corinthians 3: 13 bottom -15
"It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. If it is burned up, he will suffer loss, he himself will be saved but only as one escaping through the flames."
I could be the one who just saved from the fire in the last minutes. If then I might be heartbroken and cry out for the past confessing that I live for nothing in front of God. However things changed, now I live a valuable life which I preach the gospel to others and spend my most of time with God through praying and reading the Bible. Even though I'm very selfish and awkward God called me to live this life. I changed to the person who pleasing God through Mr and Ms Lee's help. I thanks that God waited for me till I change and also Mr. and Ms Lee and sisters who loved me as God do to me.
Please pray for me that I can love God more than anything and grow faith to become a useful worker. Have the same mind with the team and get a good spiritual minded person. Thank you all.